It's been a long long time since posting. I like the idea of blogging, keeping a record of all that has happened. In reality though, I find it very difficult to do. Often times, the blog slips to the back of my mind and I never think about it. Perhaps this is selfish of me. In any case, the entries will come unexpectedly and intermittently.
The more time I spend in Nicaragua, the more I feel that I should return home. I don't rule out the possibility of living overseas in the future. I would just prefer to do so with a partner, hopefully a wife. For the time being though, I think it's back to the states. I'm not sure what to do or where to go. I know that my job doesn't really matter. God has given me gifts and talents, and it would be a shame not to use them. All I know is that I want to use my gifts, talents, and opportunities to further His kingdom.
I've discovered many important things about myself. I've discovered that I am pretty bad at communicating when not is close proximity with another. That is not an excuse for my poor communication, only and understanding of what has happened. The next step is to figure out how to work on it. I haven't figured that part out yet.
I've also discovered that I always seem to be looking toward the next thing. When will I be content with where I'm at? Reading Proverbs 19:23 "The fear of the Lord leads to life, then one rests content, untouched by trouble." Fear of the Lord brings a sense of being content. Sometimes I think I know what this means, other times I'm not so sure. The creator and master of the universe, who is, was, and ever will be. That is certainly someone to have a healthy dose of respect for.
Further investigation reveals Philipians 4:10-13 "I rejoice greatly in the Lord that at last you have renewed your concern for me. Indeed, you have been concerned, but you had no opportunity to show it. I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through him who gives me strength." Being content in any and all circumstances because I know my place with Christ. It is He who lifts me up, fills me with joy and life. When I look at it like that, I am comforted and DO feel content. I am content to pursue Christ, and to encourage others do the same. My life to honor Him. I still haven't figured out the details or which road to walk, but I know my purpose.
